challenge accepted

I feel like I'm on a mission to punish anyone who has the audacity to care about me.

Like I'll make them sorry for ever having bothered.

I'll make them regret it.

I'm not sure if it's to actually protect them from my instability or if I'm just proving myself right. That it's so easy to be rid of the people who "didn't really want to be there in the first place," all I have to do is be a little bit mean, a little bit insensitive, a little bit ambivalent to their presence and they'll just leave.